This blog originally began as a place for me vent to prevent losing my mind while we were trying to conceive. After a couple of miscarriages I began to be angry and resentful of everything. Soon I was closing myself off from the people I needed the most; the same people who seemed to understand me the least. In the midst of all this I nearly drove Suwan crazy, found myself, finally got pregnant, was arrested, completed my masters degree; all while trying to raise a pre-teen daughter. Soon our lives turned into everything I never wanted but we always needed. Today the blog focuses on us, the happiness, the pain and the laughter…….